I don’t know how ur weekend went but mine was emotionally taxing, good and bad, all apart of this thrill ride we call life. I worked a 9 hr day on friday then i went to my night job and worked for another 4 just to find out that they still weren’t gonna pay ,me what they owe me, even after they promised to have the full amount. I fought with my significant other over bbm because i couldn’t come over after my incredibly long day to “talk” and “cuddle”, all because i had already committed myself to “following my bliss” early the next morning. I was spent, emotionally, physically and mentally spent and all i wanted to do was spend a day thinking of nothing and blowing off some steam, and following my bliss.
I guess my real question is…why is following our bliss so important, and why do we have to constantly remind ourselves to do so?
I had planned a trip to the Santa Clarita valley to go shoot guns with the boyz, such a Mafia-esque thing to do, shooting guns that is, and by all means i was gonna do it! I’ve been wanting to do this for awhile, something about the feel of cold hard metal in my hands, the contrast of soft and hard, warm and cold, feminine and masculine. My friend Robby who I’ve known since High school is ex military, and now he teaches shooting logistics to the Navy. He had helped me move the week before and had mentioned that he was going shooting. I seized the opportunity and invited myself to come along. I’ve been wanting to learn how to shoot, to feel all that raw power explode from underneath my complete control. i wanted to “pop my gun shooting cherry”. This made me happy! i knew I was following my bliss, and the reason i know that i was it was all because it felt it. Following you’re should feel right and good that’s how you’ll know yoUr on the right track.
We arrived at the range around 10:15-10:30. We didn’t expect it to be as far as it ended up being. The range was nestled into the Santa Clarita mountains, right past MagicMountain off of Valencia blvd. it just looked like a huge vacant dirt lot with only film encrusted pick-ups and a small white shack smack down in the middle of it. All aroundthe perimeter were what looked like to me wooden bars standing on top of steel post with pieces of tin hanging from invisible string. it reminded me of a scene from a Rob Zombie movie, dirt, pick-ups, creepy unabomber looknmen with handle bar moustaches that framed their parched lips, fliesbuzzing around, and the smell of gun powder. in this instance i really felt safe for some odd reason, perhaps it was the shot gun i was carrying in my left, even though it wasn’t loaded and the safety was on, i still felt strangely at home. We walked up to the shack and signed off waivers, and bought enough ammo to launch a small attack., we then walked up to those “wooden bars” and the boyz preceded to teach me how to load a 9mm properly, how to stand with my feet shoulder width apart and lock my elbows. They showed me how to lean ever so slightly forward as to compensate for the impact of the blast. I picked up the nine and just like deja-vu i felt the cold between my hands, the contrast of soft and hard, warm and cold, feminine and masculine, and i let her rip. Wow, what a rush it was! I felt the adrenaline rushing through my veins, and i shot again letting go with it the stressof the week, and again releasing all the tension left over from the move, and again, and again till the clip was empty. Thisto me is Bliss! Not the act of shooting guns persaybut more of the act of completing something that I’ve always wanted to do with out fear with and with an open mind. FYI Missfit Mafia does not condone the use of guns for shooting anything or anyone, only under the watchful eye of a professionals under controlled legal conditions, such as a gun range or facility.
So Why follow Bliss??? Just cuz it feels good! i can’t really answer this question for anyone but myself, but what i do know, for me anyways, is that why would God or whoever you call God, have us here on earth to do anything but follow our Bliss? Love who you want, do whatever you want to do, follow your dreams, Live in bliss!
Miss Roq